cried twice today.. beri sad, touched..haiz..
one of my patients' condition deteriorate suddenly..she is the patient i recently wrote about in one of my posts..the one with a wonderful and sweet husband who visits her EVERYDAY on a wheelchair..i was quite close with the patient so i guess tat's y i can't control my emotions..i assisted the doctor to do ECG, monitor SpO2 and stuffs..and stayed with the patient to provide her with reassurance and explanation..we screened the patient while we do all the procedures..so the uncle can onli stay outside..the patient scream in pain when the doc took blood for her..AND HER HUSBAND SAID.."ah lao..beri fast de..tahan awhile..then will recover quickly.." OMG!!cannot take it..eyes immediately went red and filled with tears! after everything was done..i saw the husband sitting at one corner...praying hard...OMG!!!CANNOT TAKE IT!!! beri beri sad...now the patient is slightly better...but she on DIL..which means she's beri ill..realli hope she will be alright..or else the uncle will be left alone le..though they have 5 children..haiz..but..their children don't care about them de..so..ya..jia you ba auntie!!
felt emotionally, mentally and physically drained now..realli felt bad that i cannot control my emotions..i always tell my friends..got to try to control..RUBBISH!i can't even do it myself...onli know how to say!